Womb with a View

My very first attempt, begun with an attitude of "I know about that" completely swept me off my feet and before I could even journal a word I cried, humbled...


Womb with A View: World Within
As I look at the drawing now, I am surprised by what I feel. The feeling I get when I see this drawing brings back a old memory of my grandfather talking about a scene from Gita. As Arjun looks upon the magnificent persona of Krishna he can see the entire universe within him. The womb is the baby's entire universe.
I see that I have put in the four elements to nurture life...sun, earth water and love. I see the curiosity in the eyes of this little human being and the potential of holding the world in the palm of his hand.
When I began I thought I could draw upon all the information I had about baby's uterine life but as I went along. Only a few elements stayed while many other came up all by themselves.
The colour and form within the womb is more distinct and bright and sharp than outside, which as I blended when asked the drawing what it needed. Also, the way showed the different parts of the baby rather than the baby... that confused me.
Now I see that the baby's entire world is the womb. While we on the outside may dwell upon how he feels, the baby is in state of bliss. He is nurtured by the life force of the world and the love of his mother. The two balance the way he becomes aware of his world. Fluidity of his home allows him to defy the pull of gravity, takes the weight of him and pliable yet firm boundaries allow him the space to discover light, sound, feel and other wonderful sensations that will make his world outside.
The baby depicted in part no longer confuses me. I think none of us have yet discovered ourselves in whole. We grow in different ways and change constantly. We do not need to know the baby ‘fully’; we just need to accept that there is potential beyond our knowing and love.
I have sat and stared at the picture each day, many times a day. I feel that the baby there is not restricted by the space, he is not uncomfortable. In fact, he is in a state of bliss. (I used this world before and it feels that way even more now). Hidden from eyes that can only understand things they can label and put away in neat box, he is free to be anything he wants and do the impossible without feeling even a shred of hesitation. In the outside world we would be afraid of such a feeling.
While we on the outside feel his lack of space, his limited stimuli to the senses as a negative, is that not what we wish to achieve when we meditate, to shut down the outside world and move inwards.
I thought I had finished with this section till I saw the picture I had done for Womb with a View. As I was resizing and uploading the picture it struck me that in a glance it seemed I was looking at the swollen belly and the birth opening of the world right between the legs. Not unlike how it looks when birth happens. Just had to add that impression to this journal